Senses heightened as my chest
tightens and I struggle to grasp what went wrong. Same sadness exacerbated by
years of familiarity. Why do I allow you to rip my heart from my chest over and
over and over again? Why do I trust you, believe you, listen to you, follow you;
allowing my movements and thoughts to be persuaded by you?
The sound of you rings sweetly in
my ears. Why would I think you are preparing to consume me with your fire? How
would I know your steps are masterfully calculated to devour me?
I hear the alarms sounding wildly
in the echoes of the wind; still I allow you inside my deep stirring energy?
You feed me blue skies and beautiful rays of sun so why would I consider you as
the darkness that withdraws the moon from my midnight?
Optimistically I search for you
with the smile of ten thousand children feeding at the bosom of a gentle, warm,
and nurturing mother. Why would I consider your hand as one that would choke
life from me?
You skillfully allure me with
your charm and grace. Your strength weakens me, but no, I had not considered
you a venomous poison. Why would I see a sly fox when behind your eyes is the
source of life?
You entice me with your
persistent pursuit of my attention. Curiously I pause to explore your chase. Your
enchanting sway delights me to deliver the fabric of my being to your feet and
await instructions. Passionately I pursue you, but why would I anticipate your
withdrawal? Why would I think you would leave me alone, hungering after you?
As blissfully as love enters, it retreats
leaving me with a bleeding heart. The same one that builds and breathes life is
the same destroyer that steals the innocence of my love leaving me with a
bleeding heart. Though I build my resistance to love, the gift giver constantly
and creatively encourages me to invite love in beyond my bleeding heart.
So shall it be.
